"15 Minutes" lyrics

Wrote this in November of 2008. The way I'm explaining this one is in a different format than I usually use because I'm using the explanation I gave in an online conversation, only edited so that it makes sense. Right off the bat I have to say that the message is NOT suicidal, it's just about the possibility of an unexpected death and the reactions that come along with it. Read the lyrics before you read the explaination, or at least read them together. I'm the fuckin' boss, bro!

What if I don't wake up in the morning?
If everything I was to you was lost?
Words and pictures on my walls...
take them down and burn them all
Goosebumps decorate my dumb skin
There's a goddamn pillow in my lungs
Just turn off the television
I haven't watched that thing in years

Who knows anything these days?
I find the things I'm most certain of turn around and punch me in the face

Phony slogans and pretty words
They will get what they deserve

How come everyone understands me
for the 15 minutes that they hear me out
"Oh my God, you hit the nail on the head," they say
But somehow, they manage to forget it all and move on
I've had enough of all the letdowns
It's harder to lose something you've had and loved
You're too distracted to see it slip on through your grip
and you never for a second thought you'd have to give it up

Looking back on my mistakes, I can't help but smile
cuz whenever i mess things up, they tend to stay messed up for awhile
Look at me, I'm owning up
in an effort to move on
But I'm only kidding myself if I don't accept the fact that they won't get me 'till I'm gone

Ain't it funny how we get excited
and throw ourselves face-first into the mundane?
It takes the bright white sheets of the hospital bed for you to realize
whether or not you're satisfied with you're life
I sit back and laugh and I appease them
Hell, it's worth it in the end
Destiny is something you and I can't control
and that's why I hope you'll always be my friend

If you were to die
Well, you know damn well
the inevitable fact that
I wouldn't be too far behind
And when we finally reach that place,
"NO REGRETS! NO REGRETS!" is what we'll say

I take everything for granted
We are all guilty of that
The harder I tried to hang on tight
the harder it became to stay up
I can't apologize for my feelings
and it's futile to sit here trying to hide
The fact of the matter is that we all know everything
it just all comes down to our willingness to abandon every disguise

Looking back on my mistakes, I can't help but smile
cuz whenever i mess things up, they tend to stay messed up for awhile
Look at me, I'm owning up
in an effort to move on
But I'm only kidding myself if I don't accept the fact that they won't get me 'till I'm gone

What if I don't wake up in the morning?
What then?

Explaination
1st verse

is just a paranoia i get sometimes

like how random death can be

So what if it just happened to me? What would everyone do? Would I have died satisfied? and so on



Then those 2 little lines are about how I've been wrong so often while
I was SURE I was right. Basically I'm not mature enough to know what I
need in a relationship, this is what I've learned.



Then the "slogans" line is about the trendy people that won't be happy
in the end (yes, inspired by Barack Obama supporters who only knew his
catchphrases).



2nd verse

I don't know, it's pretty self-explainatory

Because it's frustrating when people read my lyrics or my writing and
are like "Youre so right!" and then it just doesnt affect them at
all...I feel like they're bullshitting me.

The word "letdown" was going to be "bullshit" but I've been trying to curse less.



Then the next part is a Chorus i guess,

because it's repeated later.

And the line about no one getting me 'till im gone is how me and Trotta feel.

We're the only ones who truly understand each other and have the same exact dream and desire

and have the same struggle

and really no one is gonna care about what i wrote until i like die unexpectedly or something

and no one will really appreciate Trotta until he's not there for them anymore like he always is no matter what.



3rd verse

is about how we dont put things into perspective enough

and the last line of that part is really simple but i think really meaningful, it's also directed toward Trotta



Then the next part that starts with "if you were to die"

is about how i literally couldnt live without Trotta.

Like, we made a pact that if one of us goes, the other does too.

Just because thats what we really want.

We fight all the time

but its cuz we're struggling through everything together

and its exactly how we want it to be.

There is no one in the world that has our friendship, not even actual brothers.

It always stuns me how me and him were put in the same school and came to just understand each other so perfectly.

My mom was 50/50 on whether to put me in St. Clare or P.S. 8 in Kindergarten.

I can honestly say I'd be an entirely different person if i didnt experience everything ive experienced with Trotta

I'm really lucky



Last verse

is pretty much about my last breakup

how i was trying to run away from the fact that I didn't love her anymore.

It's not fair to anyone to hide from feelings like that. It's al a part
of growing up and coming to terms with your true feelings or whatever.



And then the last 2 lines after the last chorus thing are just questions i wonder.